inner thoughts??

have you ever feel hurt by someone till you can feel the pain paralyzing you? As you can feel the nerves pulling and the tears just flowed like a river. Sometimes it just makes me wonder, it's that why people cut their wrist? So that they can ease the pain by letting the pain "flows out" with the blood? That's what I heard before. How true is that? One thing's for sure, crying out definitely flows out the emotions along. Although it doesn't ease the pain, yet it still helps. Bit by bit, till you're tired, I guess that's when all of the emotions are out. :) And so I read somewhere that girls' tears are like the sand in an hour-glass. Once they run dry, that's when your time is up. I agree on that. When they're out of tears, I guess that's when they're tired of everything, on the edge of giving up. There's still hope of course, but how big is it? Are they still willing to give you a second chance? Or do they just wanna move on without you? The best solution is, treat your girl right. You never wanna give her the chance to think twice. Trust me! :D

as i feel his warmth and breath as he hug me goodbye, he secretly whispered the 3 words in my ears.. I was surprised at 1st then touched. I didn't expect it to happen so soon as I thought he needed more time. And as we kiss goodbye, he said it again while looking into my eyes.Aww, how he took my breath away.. I guess that's one of his charm. :) 

And it feels so weird to actually introduce your boyfriend to your parents! Trust me! It's awkward.. But I'm glad I did it because he's worth it. I'm glad I found you. Guess God sent you from above to take care of me, so there's no running away now! :D 

I love you too, baby! :)

I don't know how long can I take it anymore.. You're always hiding your thoughts from me.. Why can't you just get straight to the point? Why do you always like to pretend like nothing's going on? Don't you know I'm here for you? That I'm willing to share everything? That I'm willing to listen..

Let's just take this as a test, we'll see how long can I survive..

the rush of emotions, so not pleasant.. it got me feelin so down and emo..

when i see your sad face, i felt the emotion too. I duno why but it just struck me.. which makes me wonder why are you so sad. is it that you're missing her? is it that you recall the "us" memories between u and her? is it that you're missing every single thing about her tht you want her by your side now?

i couldn't admit that i was feeling uneasy when i saw that "box of memories" by your bed. but wat could i do than to pretend i'm ok? pondering back it got me wonder, am i jz a substitute? jz someone to replace her, someone for you to get over her.. i really dunno.. a lot of questions were playing in my head but they shall be remained silence. i do hope as time passes by, everything will be proven. that you really like me for who i am, not jz another girl that you're interested in. And of coz i do hope that you can let go of the past and move on. as i stare at the stars and pray, i pray that everything goes well, not only for u, but us..

she's such a b*tch

ugh! why r you so annoying?! why do you have to be so irritating?!

people might think you're very angelic and sweet coz they don't see the real you yet but us that know you well enough, you're a pain in d ass! I think you do know that as people are gettin to know you, they're avoiding you rite? If u dun, I really do feel sorry for you..

Here's one situation that best describe her annoying attitude!

Today we were to carry out an experiment on chromatography. Every group were given a cylinder filled with the solvent needed. There's 12 groups, so the lab assistant only prepared 12 of the cylinders.. As everyone was getting done with their set-ups, one group went and tell teacher that they didn't have the cylinder. Teacher was surprised as the cylinders were prepared just enough for everyone.

teacher: ok, this group doesn't have their cylinder. Who did the experiment twice??

everyone was lookin around, wondering. well, of coz some of us suspected tht b*tch coz she's so damn tht type of f*ckin selfish b*tch!!!

she was pretending to look around too till teacher said she will check the cylinders if no one admits. (we put names on the chromatography paper so it doesn't get mix up)

and guess wat?! tht f*ckin b*tch actually walks to the cylinders, open one of them and removed the paper. she was the one using the other group's solvent to do another set and she can f*ckin pretend tht it wasn't her! ugh! how f*cked up is tht?! the best part, she didn't even bother to apologise!! wtf!! she really got no respect and manners i tell you!

yeah, go on and pretend to be all angelic. like anyone would ever be blinded by your disgusting acts now! no one dislikes you without reasons, it been you that causes all that! I really feel sorry tht you're so pathetic! well done for getting more haters in the class! all the best to you! :)

stumble, mumble, grumble

argh!!! MUET!!! why do you have to such a killer?? *sigh*

I couldn't wake up this morning, was too lazy to get my butt off the bed. The bed was too comfortable, couldn't blame me for tht! =D Was all relax till I meet my friends. Books were everywhere, all opened up to the speaking section. Ugh! Why they just gotta read all those now? Does it even make a difference? For the sake of it, I also flipped thru the pages without knowing what I'm reading.. Boring!

11.30am
it's time! now my nerves are getting into me! it feels as if my heart is gonna burst out from under the rib cage!
>< here we go, all seated and facing the paper.. The question..

If you were given the chance to be the Prime Minister of Malaysia for one term, what is the greatest achievement will you leave behind? Mine was about world class education. What about tht to talk about? Crap! I just know there's lots of "erms & ahhs" between my sentences and stumble here and there. Why would tht happened now?! *sigh* Then the group discussion, another mistake. As things went on, I only felt that my heart is pounding fast and my face definitely gets hotter by the minute! 10minutes seem to be so long...

all in all, everyone thinks that we cooperated well, covering up each other's mistake and spoke not so bad.. Idk.. I just hope everyone scores well! ;)

~i duno why but i think i'm missing you alr. your image keeps running thru my mind, as though it's repeated again and again. but who wouldn't when you're jz too cute? :) ~

it's just so weird how you can bond to somebody in just a week?

everything happened so fast, or should I say in a rush? But when things just happen, you can't control it right? Especially those that involved feelings.. It can strike you immediately, but can also evaporate easily. It can make you on cloud9 but also put you in hell. I guess sometimes it just depends on your love luck huh? Whether you found "The One" who is "destined" to share your ups & downs in life and shower you with never ending love instead of making your life miserable. LOL

everything about him just makes me wanna get to know him better.. It's like he's a magnet, pulling me closer to him every time we meet. Who would have expect things to go smoothly on the 1st date itself? I thought it was gonna be all awkward and weird, but I'm definitely looking forward to the next one. =D One after another, things seem to get better. I just feel comfortable around him, he's just so natural. As in he's not like those guys who try so hard to impress a girl (acting cool and all), he's just being himself, shy yet friendly, nice and sweet. ;)

i do hope magic would work it's miracle because I do see a glimpse of hope in his eyes. :)