finally, SHOPPING!! :D

This was on Saturday but now only wanna blog about it :)

I stumbled across this fb page of a cafe named Citrusplus, and the pictures of the food shown seems nice so we decided to give it a try. It's in SS15, next to RHB bank. We reached there with growling stomachs and thank God the food wasn't disappointing :)

I ordered spaghetti meatballs and a cup of hot chocolate..

The meatballs are really nice but it would be better if they do sth about 

the sauce, it tasted like ketchup :(

Some sort of chicken curry rice named "Devil's Peak"

The hot chocolate was no good, but the chicken cream soup was nice (there's chicken chunks in it).. 

Overall rating : 6 / 10

After the meal, we went for a short shopping trip in Sunway Pyramid and watched "Due Date". Not bad if you're looking for a comedy movie, it's full of idiocies and vulgar words. Lots & lots of the 'f' word.. LOL!

Then proceeded to Bangsar, shopped at Peacocks London as dearest bf got cash vouchers! :D Apparently, this is their 1st branch in Malaysia. There's a few dresses which attracted me but there's no size 4! None of the clothes I'm interested in has a size 4! The smallest size they have is size 6. Wth! I wonder if they are just out of stock.. End up bought a bag while bf bought a pair of jeans. Had dinner at Buffalo Kitchen. 

This is what that greeted us :) 

Came with some salad but Mr JC ate it  ><"

Food was nice, ambience was great.. Overall rating : 7/10

Whole day of shopping but only got a bag and a shirt. This means... 

More shopping trips to come!!  :D

I couldn't sleep..  :(  Here's the lyrics of one of my favourite songs. It can represent love and also "emo-ness"..

Everytime We Touch by Cascada

Enjoy! :)

I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me

I still feel your touch in my dreams

Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why

Without you it's hard to survive

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling

And everytime we kiss, I swear I could fly

Can't you feel my heart beat fast?

I want this to last

I need you by my side

'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static

And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky

Can't you hear my heart beat so?

I can't let you go

I want you in my life

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky

They wipe away tears that I cry

The good and the bad times, we've been through them all

You make me rise when I fall

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling

And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly

Can't you feel my heart beat fast?

I want this to last

I need you by my side

'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static

And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky

Can't you hear my heart beat so?

I can't let you go

I want you in my life

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling

And everytime we kiss, I swear I could fly

Can't you feel my heart beat fast?

I want this to last

I need you by my side

weird.....

These days I've been having weird dreams almost every afternoon.. Wth is going on? All those dreams seem pretty real but I don't want them to happen in real life.. Is it the effect of waking up late? Who can interpret dreams? ><"

F*** YOU, STPM!!!!! 


I swear if you're a thing, I'll smash the hell out of you with a big damn gigantic enormous hammer till you become microscopic dust! Damn you!!!!! >=( 

CHANGE

This week's been like a fucking cursed week!! Nothing's sailing smoothly!

I'm just so full of frustration I can burn down a house! 
I'm so full of disappointment I can cry a river! 
I'm so fucking mad right now I can tear you into pieces! 

God, please guide me through this journey coz I'm just too weak I might just fall into pieces...
Bless me so that I can stay strong, stay sane.. 
For when I lose my mind, nothing's going to end up right..

Today's the day 1st time ever in history that I cried for a stupid waste of time subject paper!

I knew the day's gonna be rough coz I didn't have the chance to get much rest and was having weird dreams haunting me throughout my "sleep". Pure shitty day! I went to school with confidence that I'll at least able to do the whole paper, ended up a whole pile of stuff undone. My hands were practically shaking  during the last hour coz I knew that I wouldn't be able to finish the entire paper. 


Till the very last minute I still try to scribble, but seems like it wasn't much of a help. By the time the papers were out of my sight, I know if I don't hold myself together, I'm gonna breakdown right on the spot.Quiet and walking with quick steps, I got into the car and the next minute.... Yeah, I broke down.. I wish that he was here, with me, holding me, comforting me, soothing me, humming some la-la song..  ='(  

Stress??

From this second, I've got around 28hours or so to my first STPM paper! Damn! Now only I started to get a little taste of being tensed up. There's so much to do and time is really running out. At the same time I just want all this to come to an end, a happy one preferably but we couldn't choose do we?

Examination haven't start but I'm already thinking of what to do after. Is all this due to excitement that finally all will be ending real soon or just because I had given up long ago? I always ponder upon this but just couldn't find the answer..

Once exams over, I guess that would be the end of school life. I am sure I'll miss everyone real bad especially those crazy friends that had been by my side and the lovely teachers that guided me all along.

Pray hard now, I'll be needing all that! ;)

Yesterday was a pure bad day.. 

My ko-kurikulum marks were a disaster, no thanks the teachers. Finally got rescued by the ever-so-kind Mr Sazli. Everything will be settled on Monday. Phew!~ 

Then when to see the doctor as I realised there's blood in my urine. And as I expected, there's stone particles in my urinary tract. Sigh! Hope the medication works, or else gotta do laser surgery. To add on to that, there's some stuff in my uterus, abnormal size it seems. Gotta go see a gynae all. Seems like I'm just full of crap for now. This sucks! :(

Dearest bf just got back from Cameron. Gosh! Was I so excited to see him! It just felt weird to let my weekends gone without him. ><"

Guess what's the first thing he said when he saw me? "Baby, I'm sorry!". I was like, "Huh? What for?". He showed me a sad face. "I'm sorry coz I didn't get you flowers from Cameron. They didn't sell roses at those places we went". And the best part was that he actually gone to florist stores trying to find roses but they were all closed. That silly darling! He's just the sweetest thing! :)

Instead of roses, I got a cute lil hot pink coloured cactus. LOL! We named it Mimi. =D 

Mimi will be the witness of our love growing as days passed and grow along :) It's been 6months now! Things are as sweet as how it started and I hope it'll always be.. 

I LOVE YOU, BABY! ♥

BIRTHDAYS?

yeap! Imma talk bout birthdays..

What do the term "birthday" means to you? Do you find it something special or is it just another ordinary day?

To me, birthdays are something special when it's about the people around me.. Without those days, they wouldn't be in my life now. That's why I tend to remember them. =D But when it comes to mine, it's just another ordinary day.

What about you? ;)

Is a girl asking too much if she expects more from her guy? 

Sometimes I wish he's more understanding but how can he when he's no me
Sometimes I wish he's a romantic coz that's really sweet but he's just ain't one
Sometimes I wish he's good at surprising as that's something I enjoy
And sometimes I wish he would be more to the person I wish he could be but that's just impossible

Noone's perfect and I guess we shouldn't expect too much :)

Life's nothing but a journey, sailing through the rough yet smooth sea of emotions and obstacles.. I always remember this quote from a friend, "One must overcome difficulties, not to be overcome by difficulties". Who says life would be easy? There's a new challenge everyday. It's up to us to stay strong and get through it, or to be defeated by it. 

I hope I'm strong enough to go through this last month before hell ends! ><"

feeling like a crap

been sick for few days now.. this really sucks! whole day sneezing non-stop, mountain of tissues piling up, blur the whole day! sigh! and to add to all these crap, I failed my PA paper.. One of the papers that you're supposed to pass easily :( But I wasn't the only one to fail this stupid paper.. This is the second time I didn't manage to finish all questions. Seems like I really gotta buckle up! ><"

Other than all the shite(s) that happened, I guess today's jz another normal day passing by bringing me closer to Doom's Day! :(

Dearest daddy bought a pair of rabbits and another pair of guinea pigs, especially for me coz he always sees me playing with those stray pups that are all now gone.. I wonder who adopted them. Anyhow, I hope they get good care takers :) Signing out now! Peace! ;)

everything about you

i miss everything about you.. from your touch, to your smile, your laughter, your hugs, your warmth, your smell, EVERYTHING! :) love the way you pulled me into your arms and tell me that everything will be ok when something's wrong. it feels so right when you always there for me no matter what. it's funny when i complained i'm fat and show you the fatty layers and yet you said i'm skinny. wonder whether you mean it or just said it to make me happy. haha! love the way you pushed my hair behind my ears while you looked me in the eyes. it feels like we're connected to each other's soul, loving you more each second. i miss you even more when we have our heart-to-heart talk, cuddled up in each other's embrace. so sweet! and also the part where you always remind me how much you love me and how you don't want the sand in the hour-glass to run out..

baby, as always, ily!  :)

it's been a while since i last felt like this.. don't know what is the exact word to describe this feeling.. It felt something like lonely, empty, cold and hollow.. I felt as though I'm losing a part of me each time I feel this way.. Everytime I just wanna be alone, let this feeling eat me up slowly, feel it deep and finally tear.. Weird huh?? Well, I guess when they say girls are emo creatures, there's a truth to it ;)

inner thoughts??

have you ever feel hurt by someone till you can feel the pain paralyzing you? As you can feel the nerves pulling and the tears just flowed like a river. Sometimes it just makes me wonder, it's that why people cut their wrist? So that they can ease the pain by letting the pain "flows out" with the blood? That's what I heard before. How true is that? One thing's for sure, crying out definitely flows out the emotions along. Although it doesn't ease the pain, yet it still helps. Bit by bit, till you're tired, I guess that's when all of the emotions are out. :) And so I read somewhere that girls' tears are like the sand in an hour-glass. Once they run dry, that's when your time is up. I agree on that. When they're out of tears, I guess that's when they're tired of everything, on the edge of giving up. There's still hope of course, but how big is it? Are they still willing to give you a second chance? Or do they just wanna move on without you? The best solution is, treat your girl right. You never wanna give her the chance to think twice. Trust me! :D

as i feel his warmth and breath as he hug me goodbye, he secretly whispered the 3 words in my ears.. I was surprised at 1st then touched. I didn't expect it to happen so soon as I thought he needed more time. And as we kiss goodbye, he said it again while looking into my eyes.Aww, how he took my breath away.. I guess that's one of his charm. :) 

And it feels so weird to actually introduce your boyfriend to your parents! Trust me! It's awkward.. But I'm glad I did it because he's worth it. I'm glad I found you. Guess God sent you from above to take care of me, so there's no running away now! :D 

I love you too, baby! :)

I don't know how long can I take it anymore.. You're always hiding your thoughts from me.. Why can't you just get straight to the point? Why do you always like to pretend like nothing's going on? Don't you know I'm here for you? That I'm willing to share everything? That I'm willing to listen..

Let's just take this as a test, we'll see how long can I survive..

the rush of emotions, so not pleasant.. it got me feelin so down and emo..

when i see your sad face, i felt the emotion too. I duno why but it just struck me.. which makes me wonder why are you so sad. is it that you're missing her? is it that you recall the "us" memories between u and her? is it that you're missing every single thing about her tht you want her by your side now?

i couldn't admit that i was feeling uneasy when i saw that "box of memories" by your bed. but wat could i do than to pretend i'm ok? pondering back it got me wonder, am i jz a substitute? jz someone to replace her, someone for you to get over her.. i really dunno.. a lot of questions were playing in my head but they shall be remained silence. i do hope as time passes by, everything will be proven. that you really like me for who i am, not jz another girl that you're interested in. And of coz i do hope that you can let go of the past and move on. as i stare at the stars and pray, i pray that everything goes well, not only for u, but us..

she's such a b*tch

ugh! why r you so annoying?! why do you have to be so irritating?!

people might think you're very angelic and sweet coz they don't see the real you yet but us that know you well enough, you're a pain in d ass! I think you do know that as people are gettin to know you, they're avoiding you rite? If u dun, I really do feel sorry for you..

Here's one situation that best describe her annoying attitude!

Today we were to carry out an experiment on chromatography. Every group were given a cylinder filled with the solvent needed. There's 12 groups, so the lab assistant only prepared 12 of the cylinders.. As everyone was getting done with their set-ups, one group went and tell teacher that they didn't have the cylinder. Teacher was surprised as the cylinders were prepared just enough for everyone.

teacher: ok, this group doesn't have their cylinder. Who did the experiment twice??

everyone was lookin around, wondering. well, of coz some of us suspected tht b*tch coz she's so damn tht type of f*ckin selfish b*tch!!!

she was pretending to look around too till teacher said she will check the cylinders if no one admits. (we put names on the chromatography paper so it doesn't get mix up)

and guess wat?! tht f*ckin b*tch actually walks to the cylinders, open one of them and removed the paper. she was the one using the other group's solvent to do another set and she can f*ckin pretend tht it wasn't her! ugh! how f*cked up is tht?! the best part, she didn't even bother to apologise!! wtf!! she really got no respect and manners i tell you!

yeah, go on and pretend to be all angelic. like anyone would ever be blinded by your disgusting acts now! no one dislikes you without reasons, it been you that causes all that! I really feel sorry tht you're so pathetic! well done for getting more haters in the class! all the best to you! :)

stumble, mumble, grumble

argh!!! MUET!!! why do you have to such a killer?? *sigh*

I couldn't wake up this morning, was too lazy to get my butt off the bed. The bed was too comfortable, couldn't blame me for tht! =D Was all relax till I meet my friends. Books were everywhere, all opened up to the speaking section. Ugh! Why they just gotta read all those now? Does it even make a difference? For the sake of it, I also flipped thru the pages without knowing what I'm reading.. Boring!

11.30am
it's time! now my nerves are getting into me! it feels as if my heart is gonna burst out from under the rib cage!
>< here we go, all seated and facing the paper.. The question..

If you were given the chance to be the Prime Minister of Malaysia for one term, what is the greatest achievement will you leave behind? Mine was about world class education. What about tht to talk about? Crap! I just know there's lots of "erms & ahhs" between my sentences and stumble here and there. Why would tht happened now?! *sigh* Then the group discussion, another mistake. As things went on, I only felt that my heart is pounding fast and my face definitely gets hotter by the minute! 10minutes seem to be so long...

all in all, everyone thinks that we cooperated well, covering up each other's mistake and spoke not so bad.. Idk.. I just hope everyone scores well! ;)

~i duno why but i think i'm missing you alr. your image keeps running thru my mind, as though it's repeated again and again. but who wouldn't when you're jz too cute? :) ~

it's just so weird how you can bond to somebody in just a week?

everything happened so fast, or should I say in a rush? But when things just happen, you can't control it right? Especially those that involved feelings.. It can strike you immediately, but can also evaporate easily. It can make you on cloud9 but also put you in hell. I guess sometimes it just depends on your love luck huh? Whether you found "The One" who is "destined" to share your ups & downs in life and shower you with never ending love instead of making your life miserable. LOL

everything about him just makes me wanna get to know him better.. It's like he's a magnet, pulling me closer to him every time we meet. Who would have expect things to go smoothly on the 1st date itself? I thought it was gonna be all awkward and weird, but I'm definitely looking forward to the next one. =D One after another, things seem to get better. I just feel comfortable around him, he's just so natural. As in he's not like those guys who try so hard to impress a girl (acting cool and all), he's just being himself, shy yet friendly, nice and sweet. ;)

i do hope magic would work it's miracle because I do see a glimpse of hope in his eyes. :)

zombie-ness

i shdn't had slept late, was quite a zombie in school today. Even walk also I gotta dragged myself. >< ok, mayb a lil dramatic, but tht's how I felt.. Got back my Chem paper today, as usual teacher was disappointed with our results.. This time I almost pass, jz short of 2 marks! but big improvement compared to d 1st test.
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why everytime when I on9, tht guy jz have to find topics to talk one? I'm already giving subtle hints that I'm not interested and he jz doesn't get it.. OMG!

thk God there's some1 who makes my day better.. hope u knw u're the one I'm talking about.. imu! :)

Thank you, God!

While I was doing my Biology paper today, I was feeling very sleepy, like some blur case.. Answer some questions then rest a while, got up do again, rest again.. Who wouldn't feel sleepy at that hour of time? If can, I would wanna hibernate. The weather is really a killer.

Time passed by...

As I looked at the clock, there is still 10 minutes left. I really need to go to the ladies but I kinda have this feeling that I have to go through my answers again. As if there's something wrong but I just couldn't tell what is it..

Squeezing my brain juice trying to figure out in what cell does the reaction occur. But Krebs cycle?? There's no answer to that! How can that be?! OMG! ><"

Finally at the last 5 minutes..

OMG!! It's not the Krebs cycle! It's the Hatch-Slack Pathway! I have to changed all the answers in that few crucial minutes! (It was a structured question) Managed to change the answers but the whole paper was full of scribbles. I actually wanted to ask teacher whether can she read those writing. =/

I'm really grateful that I didn't waste that last 10 minutes going to the washroom although I really have to pee.. Imagine if I just passed up the paper with those initial answers, I think I'm gonna failed the paper and my teacher gonna kill me.. =D

woah! no19 in Larian Diraja Bandar Klang! din expect tht, since i jz wanna join for fun. Plus I din get to sleep d previous nite. Got home at 2+, shower & all and it's alr 3 sth, got up at 5am! All thanks to Mr. A lar.. lol! But it was worth it, enjoyed hanging out with him even though it was our 1st outing.. I thought it was gonna b awkward, but it was all alrite. I think running's gonna b my new ecstasy. D fun of it comes when u jz enjoy running without d stress of winning & reached d finishing line feeling all relax.. :) Gonna join more open events when hv d chance! teehee!~

~when someone appreciates u, they tend to remind u how special u are to them & they meant it sincerely :)~

Today SMKTAR had its cross-country which was supposed to b on the 25th of Feb but postponed due to d MSSD's cross country. Well, everything was so far so gd. =D

Here are some pics tht I took randomly in my house, jz wanna share.. :) Enjoy!

my most favourite :)

OMG! My life's a mess! Everything's is so crazily out of control. My homework's piled up, hv a heck of a time to catch up with studies & d freaking mssd is so near! ><" Yet i'm here wondering whether d moments we shared were jz dreams or sth more. I told myself to get over u & I did, but u jz had to pull me in for another ride. Now that I miss u so, where have u gone? Wish u're here.. But it's all jz a wish, one that cannot be fulfilled..

It's been ages since I last update coz was pretty busy.. Guess I'll jz keep it short & sweet! :)

Currently having muscle pain at my legs & ass, all thanks to d mssd training. Having d cross-country on 25th. Jz for this, I'm so damn tanned. *sigh* After this still got d olahraga thing. I wonder how dark can I go till it's all over.. :(

Apart from tht, got a new handphone, all thanks to daddy! My baby's a week old now yet still lovely.. lol!

anyways, it's d eve. All sorts of questions been running through my mind. "Where to go? Who to meet? Wat to do? When to get crazy?". Jz can't wait to get crazy but thinking of d training seesions tht r yet to come & how I'm supposed to try to catch up with lessons as I've been out of sch for d training, it's really wearing my mood. *sigh sigh sigh* I guess I'll jz switch on d crazy mood for now & leave d rest for later. Tht's if I can survive through..

it's been ages since I last update here.. :D only can describe my life now with 2 words, "fabulously busy!".. class, house practice, tuitions, stay backs.. almost everyday d same routine. by d time I got home, I'm already half dead.. (x.x")

had replacement class this morning. It was for CNY. Was really sleepy, can feel d effect when was at d wheels. *blur blur* Took a nap when got into class, thanks to d absence of our MUET teacher. Got back Chem's assessment paper, teacher AGAIN was kinda disappointed with our results. (Feeling so guilty, ><")

Throughout d whole day, Maths class was a pure torture. She continued with trigonometry today. ARGH!! Hate tht topic, it seriously made our heads spinned & squeezed d brain juice out of us! Bare touch d questions after few attempts (headache), ended up counting down to 1.40pm with Teng.. Was grumbling about d questions & talking craps.. :P And today's jogging session was not bad, hopefully helps in my high jump event on Mon. Kinda nervous about it! Wish me luck!~   ;)